Pianos & Jackhammers

"Get ready," he said, "it's louder than a jackhammer".

As the track slowly clicked me into the MRI, I worried that he was right. The thought of a jackhammer conjured up violent images in my mind, the thudding whir that my husband described suddenly replaced by imagining a jackhammer behind that flimsy-looking plastic casing above my head. As the beeping began, I wondered just what I'd gotten myself into.

I am okay. I am okay. This isn't so bad. Wait, i'm moving no i'm not but my foot itches. *BEEP BEEP BEEP Is that it? That can't be it. That's nothing. oh crap. that means the real sound is REALLY bad. What if it's scary? What if I freak out? Wait i'm freaking out now. no i'm not. yes you are. oh my gosh! i'm dizzy. i'm going to faint. calm down. read the label above your head. germany. it's german. i'm german. this is a good sign. look above you. what's that? three red lines on the plastic casing. what's that from? THUD-- THUD--THUD-- THUDTHUDTHUD** oh that's it? okay. this is kinda scary. now i know what those lines are. nail polish. someone literally clawed their way out of this thing. why did they claw their way out? what do they know that i don't? oh dear god. it's going to get worse. it's going to get louder! (then it really started, a thudding whir, just like my husband described. and the weirdest thing happened. my finger started pulsing to the beat of the whir) okay this isn't too bad. i'm not scared. but this means the magnet is on. am i dead? did my fillings go through my brain? read the little label again. says germany. i can read it. i can read it so i'm obviously alive. i couldn't read it if i were dead. or could i?! oh no. this is ridiculous. am i alive? yes i'm breathing. and there, i can hear the piano music i requested. piano musicTHUDpiano musicTHUDTHUDpianopianoTHUDTHUD. hehehe i made up an MRI joke, listening to the piano in the MRI is like a beethoven symphony!!! wait not because he's deaf, that would be insensitive. because it's thudding, like that song. you know? nevermind. now my back hurts. and my finger is twitching. am i magnetic? that's it. i'm magnetic. well wait if i were magnetic i would be flying towards the top of the machine. my heart's racing. IS MY HEART MAGNETIC? what does that mean? ouch my toosh hurts. it really hurts. can i move? can i move? can i move? ceiling tiles. germany. finger twitches. can i move? i wonder if britney spears has had an mri. and if she has, did she request her own music?

So that was my inner monologue from my MRI today. I had to make sure I didn't have a bicornate shaped organ... fun stuff! Hopefully, I do not. But who knows...

schemes!

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Last Birth Control Pill!!!

So today I went into SG for my Pre-IVF bloodwork and ultrasound. Everything looked good, but the OR is fully booked for my possible retrieval date so my stims have been pushed back a day. I start my injections on Saturday the 2nd! Can't wait!

The Closet: Our Supply of Baby-making Meds

Bravelle, Menopur, Ganirellix, Endometrin, a bunch of syringes and our very own sharps container!

Do You Want Caffeine With That?

So there are a lot of resources that show that caffeine is really detrimental to the IVF/baby making process. I am four days away from starting stimulants.

Caffeine, you and I are about to embark on a slow and painful breakup....

Matt, on taking his fertil-aid vitamins:

"My swimmers will become sharks!"

Maybe Baby?

There was a movie on Starz tonight, Maybe Baby. In it was a monologue about infertility that was so touching and hit on everything I've felt... but I can't find it online! Darn you internet!

Our IUIs

We tried two IUIs in the fall. Both were on Clomid, with Ovidrel triggers. I was on 50 mg of Clomid. The postwash counts were at about 7 million each. Neither worked.

Mock Transfer

Today I went to Shady Grove for my mock transfer. A mock transfer is an appointment in which they basically "map" the uterus to see what they're working with. They inject saline through a small catheter and monitor on the ultrasound machine.

Today I saw my primary doctor, Dr. K. It was so nice to be back at Shady Grove! I hadn't been there since last October; it had definitely been awhile. The mock transfer was no problem at all. I was surprised when it was already over!

Dr. K wanted to know a bit more before we do the IVF, so he ordered an MRI for me... I am schedule for Friday :)

After the mock transfer, I had the injection class. This was really helpful, and it was nice because there were two other couples there (I was the only one without a husband! How scandalicious!). Okay so I learned how to mix the powder and the water, detach the needle and put on a q-cap to do that, then how to inject myself. I will be doing two injections a day for 12 days. Actually, only one injection of two different medicines: Bravelle and Menopur. At some point I will start doing Ganirellix in the mornings as well. Then, before the retrieval, Matt will have to do the trigger injection in my toosh.

Overall it was a good day and I feel one step closer to our baby.

Meds Came!

The meds from Village pharmcy came today.

I have about 7 boxes of Menorpur, 5 of Lupron, 4 of something else... and a bunch of syringes. I am nervous :)

Hope the Luck of the Irish hits us!

On to... IVF!!!

I am finally getting started with my IVF! We have been waiting since last fall to start: first waiting until after our trip to Africa, then the trip messed up my pills (darn you, Heathrow!) and lastly the last cycle fell in the week of MSA. So... here we go! Can not wait.