I just watched "Up" for the first time, and I knew what I was getting myself into, because I'd seen a warning about it on another fertility blog, but it threw me into a crying fit for a good 20 minutes... at least three times throughout the movie! Poor Walker didn't know what to do with himself. He does not like me crying :)
Anyway, I guess it helps to put things in perspective for me. The biggest adventure, and what makes my life fulfilled, is my husband. We have a wonderful adventure together and although I would LOVE to share a child with him, I don't need a child to have a full life with him. We already have such a wonderful time together. We are an adventure in an of itself.
Dear Matt,
If we never have children together, although that would make me sad because I want there to forever a be a part of you in the world, I wouldn't be disappointed. I wouldn't feel as if my life wasn't "complete", because my life became complete when you came into it. Everything else with you has been icing on the cake. I don't need children for our life to be worth living-- it's already worth living because I live everyday of it with you. Waking up with you, smiling with you, laughing and making up jokes with you, "sploring" with you and recording funny messages in the car, that's our life. That's our wonderful life. And it's already full of love and joy. I love you and I love what we have together so much. I hope you know that.
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