What if...? 1

What if I have to learn to live childfree with a smile….forever (from Mrs. A)?

What if I have to learn... well you know the thing is, I always imagined myself childfree. When I was little I actually quite often imagined a future where I didn't have kids of my own. I always imagined that I'd be the crazy spirited one-- I wanted to go explore the world and planned on sending home pictures from exotic places. I once thought that I would be a surrogate for my sister if she needed me to, but I never really considered me "having" children of my own-- until I had this dream, when I was about 12, about being grown up. I was grown up and I was pregnant. I was standing in the dining room of our old house and it was Thanksgiving. Interestingly, everyone was there but my dad, and I was leaning against the table and I was wearing leggings. That's all I remember. But when I woke up I realized that, you know, I WILL grow up one day and I will have children of my own.

So what would it be like to learn to live childfree? I will never have to answer that question. I will be a mother come hell or high water.